what you see may not be what you get

two weeks break before the new sem. starts.
it's going to be a whole new challenge for me.
to break away from my comfort zone (will i be able to do it?) and socialise and land myself with a group that i can work with (hopefully).
it's gonna be pretty tough but
i . dont . have . a . choice.
oh well.
i hope time passes slower.

during this holiday,
i dont know what to do.
i dont wanna waste my time at home.
i wanna do something fun!
but everyone's busy with their own life, i dont want to interfere.
on a good note, i met up with dee and ling after a year plus.
guilty as i am but i'm glad we caught up!

i've been thinking,
is being "busy" a really good excuse?
like you cant take a little time out from your busy schedule just to even reply a simple sms?
maybe a minute or less?
i believe, that whatever the reason may be, as long as you have the heart to do it,
no matter how busy you are, you WILL make time.
to put in that extra effort for a friend/person who is worth it.
but the world is like that, you dont get people to agree with you.

even if it means meeting up for just 30min,
it'll mean a whole lot more than meeting up for half the day,
and it'll make a difference than not meeting up at all.
because then, you know that an effort was put in and you'll treasure the time spent more.
kind of tired of taking the initiative.
let me have a break. =]

this night,
i have so many questions and thoughts.
i type it out, but hit the backspace after that.
i'm not sure i want to make it public and let people judge me. (hear only the good stuffs?)
is there a right person that i can pour everything out to?
like seriously.