what you see may not be what you get

no doubt cny was good so far but the thought of a 40% proj due on wed is suffocating me.
it doesnt help when one of your group member is out of town till one day before proj. submission and her first delegated part has not been sent over yet.
all the reasons i don't know whether i should believe or not.
"i fell sick and was hospitalized" (how credible is this? so serious?)
"the internet connection here is very weak"
"please delegate the 2nd part to me i can do it"
if you can reply an email, why cant you attach your document and send it over?
i dont think attaching a file to an email will make any difference to your internet connection than simply replying the email.
how do we trust you with a 2nd part when you haven't even done the first part and weren't at our group meeting?
but well, the group can work better without you anyway.

and after this wed, it'll be term test for my finance module.
i haven't touched a single bit yet thanks to the proj.
seeing Jeanna blogged about her progress in studying makes me feel even more depressed, disappointed and angry with myself.
why didn't i start the proj. going way earlier.
why do i like procrastinating ALL THE TIME?

it sucks even more when you're the
MASTER EDITOR of the entire report.
yes i regret but I'm gonna make sure the report is gonna be GOOD so i don't disappoint myself any further.

i really don't know how i can squeeze all those finance into my memory within three pathetic days.

on a random note, i cant wait for the IT fair coming up in march.