what you see may not be what you get

i'm getting so annoyed, fustrated, dissatisfied, unhappy, etc at this moment.

i just cant tolerate any longer when people back out at the last minute. it's tough enough to organise something and when things were looking all bright and sunny, it'll definitely have to turn vice-versa, dark and stormy. the disappointment is beyond words. and why the disappointment? why not you ponder upon it. imagine it happening to you. maybe we should think twice before giving a reply.

if i send you a msg, i expect a reply as an acknowledgement that my msg got through. isnt it basic courtesy? dont let me send the same frigging msg a few times and appear to be as if i'm begging you like you're damn fugging big shot before you reply. you may get irritated and annoyed, so will i.

here i am trying to organise things to prolong a friendship, hoping to make everyone happy and have fun, there you are treating it like as if it's NOTHING. maybe i'm just too free and i just need company to kill my time. well hello? do i have to go through so much trouble. it's because you mean something to me. if it's so unappreciative, then forget it, there wont be anymore to come and i promise.

quoted: " i noe how tiring it is to just keep the friendship going when another party just taking it like nothing is wrong." do you exactly feel that THERE IS something wrong in between or maybe it's just me being over sensitive? does this have any importance to you? this may all be a one sided thing and you may say i dont know your side of the story. well fine then, how am i supposed to know if you're always MIA? maybe we're just waiting for someone to take the initiative.

people grow, we make new friends, we learn new things, we change. what is the shiat use of always saying FRIENDS FOREVER when action speaks louder than words. so you think just by saying that you'll prolong a friendship? dont be naive. how much value can that two words have? you never know who's gonna change her character and start to turn her back on you. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE IN THIS WORLD. tolerated enough and i'm just plain tired of everything that is happening/happened. if i am so unworthy or your friendship, then maybe you could tell me so that i can stop wasting my time putting hopes on you and feel like the whole world has crushed on me in the end. it's something called HEARTBREAKING. petty i may be.

it's comforting to know that i aint the only one feeling like these.

"and soon, the bonds that were built will break"
how true is this gonna be?





if any of the above sound offensive to you, then i'll apologise. people just need to pour everything out sometimes.