what you see may not be what you get

we've come to the end of the year.

this year's been good and bad.
the beginning of the year was spent anticipating for the O level results.
the anxiety, worried, wild thoughts, etc.
worked at NOSH and it was a great experience.

a relief of the results and have chosen a path that i have decided to walk.
new environment, new lifestyle, new people, new timetable etc.
dreading lectures and tutorials, gossips, complains.

had a load of disputes and unhappiness,
misunderstandings, insults, arguments.
the will to resolve but never worked.

trip to HongKong was a good getaway.
indulging in food and shopping, walking till the soles hurt so much.

for the new year,
the top of the list will be that i wanna let bygones be bygones,
bare no grudges among any individual anymore and befriend them.
are you willing to do this with me?
and not neglecting, to put in more effort in my studies.
despite my hate for micro, i wanna at least scrap thru it with a D.
(i near an F now)
so i can move on to year 2 without any module repetition.

of course there are more in the list but i dont think it should be made public.

i dont axactly feel any excitement for the new year.
in the past,
i'll be prepared with a new school bag and shoes and books and maybe uniform,
waking up extra early on the first day of school,
stand by near the canteen to greet schoolmates and occassionally
"you cut your hair!"
and we'll be commenting on the new little sec ones with their parents searching for their class and we'll start to stereotype.
assembly on the first day is always a dread because it's always the same speech.
the only highlight will be the introduction of form teachers and new teachers.

i guess now, a new year doesnt mean a new school term that's why.

so,
HAVE A BLESSED YEAR AHEAD!
HAPPY NEW YEAR AND LET'S WELCOME 2007!
*with the friggin 7% GST that i know we will dread 2007.

night at the museum was good.
had a jolly well 'paiseh' moment at NUM where 3 guys were serving me.

it was a surprise for the initiative and i began to felt ashamed.
like what the rest assumed, i hope it's otherwise,
so that i'll feel a little more comforted and less ashamed.

it's blackjack later!