what you see may not be what you get

i was just wondering..
how many of my friends actually know me well enough.
do i know them more than they know me?
we're now in the next phase of life,
we meet different ppl, we face different challenges and environment that change us, we're busy with our schedules, and the list goes on...
what if i get forgotten and no one to turn to when i'm troubled?
what's gonna happen to our friendships?
are we gonna drift further and further apart like the sky that never meets the sea?
are we gonna have no common topics to talk about besides a 'hi' and a 'bye'?
and at the end of the day,
we're only left with memories?

sometimes i wish i was a fortune teller.
so i could predict the future and prepare myself for it,
rather then be at a loss when it happens.
oh well.

basic theory test date = 17th Oct 2006 * 0915-1005.
i prolly have to skip lecture on the second day of a new school sem.

you dont have to keep reminding me about the fact and telling me about it.
it's friggin irritating and it's gettin on my nerves.
do you know how much it's hurting me?
call ureself my mother.
is this your way of making sure i do it?
has it ever occured to you that i'll just prolly ignore it and not do it?
call me stubborn.
but cuz i've been so hurt by the words that i'm no longer motivated to do it.
so will you shut up from now onwards about it?
cuz i believe when time passes, i will be doing it.
that's my nature.
the more you tell me to do it, and if i dont think it's a life and death situation,
i wont do it.
so just leave me to it from now.

I'M JUST SO NOT IN THE MOOD NOW.

SORRY FOR BEING SO RUDE BUT I'M JUST SO FRIGGIN FUSTRATED BOUT IT.

RAAAAANTS!