what you see may not be what you get

you'll be gone in a blink of time.. how i wished the clock would stop ticking. so far yet so close.

-sigh-
time flies.. stef would be leaving tomorrow at 9+
can't send her off!!! i came home and took a nap..
dreamt of stef.. when i woke.. my heart felt a pull..
i felt like crying suddenly. no tears. guess they're
all in the heart. God is so unfair.. maybe he's not
but why can't he let me have an opp. to go study
overseas?! stayin here is sucha drag

-imaginin-
my turn to go overseas.. will i can't bare to leave
my friends? ir they sent me off at the airport.. would
i consider not going? would i even think about it?
what would life be there? can i be independent?

dang~ goin overseas aint that easy afterall..

i'm gonna miss the time when i shared 'the' prob
with her.. she's just so.. winlling to listen to
every single thing you say.. so willing to help..
i might not be able to confide in her so often...
but i definitely will confide in her no matter wad..
she's my counsellor.. hahaXx..
a friend that i never regret knowin.. strong outside
but quite soft inside.. it's been 3 years since i know
her!!! and 2 yrs since we got close!! am gonna miss
the times we spent together.. walking home.. beach
party.. chalet.. some are vivid memories but it still
leaves a shadow in my heart and mind. forever it will
be. it started out with rung, pascale, lydia, stef and i..
den came along zj.. something happened but stef lydia
zj and i are still as a clique.. den came xiuxiang.. and soon
kc and lynette.. now that she's leaving.. things will not be
the same but her shadow will always be with the group.
bringin back memories..

aint gonna be that close.. but i hope: you're so far yet
hearts so close.. that we'll always be the same as before
and nothing can change that. she's an angel sent from
above. God's gift. a precious gift. a wanted gift.

i have nothing more to say but just that
i'm really really gonna miss.. it's always
crying inside when i think of her... it hurts.
but i believe that God will protect and make sure
she's ok.

Packing up the dreams
God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

(CHORUS)
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

-dedicated to my lovely friend, stefanie budiman-